Regimented Escape

Reaching at the forked road of my life.

Which way should I take?

The one that will bring me happiness?

Or the one that will bring justification?

In a condition like this..
I’m incapable of taking the easy way..

To take the U-turn..

It’s like looking back at the journey I been through..

It will only bring more sorrow and sadness to me..

One reason is I truly miss the carefree days..

Being happy all the time..
And all the smile I’m having on my face is true..

But now the smile on my face is only to disguise my depression..

Those pimples are going to get more and more..

Another reason is what pain you have caused in me..

I once thought that you’ll be the best thing I’ve ever had..

But it sucks to find out that..

You’re the best thing I never had..

And never will have..

Because all the sweet memories with you are so virtual to me..

It’s imaginary rather than real..

All this things happen in just one simple week.

One boundary I crossed because I don’t understand you that well..

Brought me this paradigm shift..

Such a huge change that it made me question what friends are for..

So the escape of taking the U-turn can be said to be completely impossible..

Because I learnt that what’s happen can’t be combat just by escaping..

And since it’s simply just a regimented escape..

The possibility can be said to be zero..

I know just leaving things be can’t curb anything..

But that’s what I thought last week.

Because this week I learnt something new..

Apologizing doesn’t necessary mean you’re at fault..

But it just meant that you treasure the bond more than yourself..

But it seems to me that apologizing is actually futile.

If it’s a one sided thing..

You can’t clap with only one hand..

So another lesson I learnt is..

Not everyone that come close can be true friends,

True friends are those who stand till the end..

You are not someone that stand with me till the end..

Instead..

You just brought me to the epilogue..

And expect me to know what I have to do..

But one thing I can tell you is..

What I did now is my boundary..

You have yours.. So do i..

I had did my part by squatting down..

So I will not further my action by hitting my head on the floor..

Begging for forgiveness..

At least I’ll have to thank you for helping me find my 3 true friends..

The one starting with C that accompanied me all along..

The one starting with D that cheer me up even though I did not say anything to him..

The one starting with L that gave me all the quality advise I can ever have..

Thank you guys..

At least I know that I’m not alone at the forked road..Because I have you..=D