Sometimes

Sometimes i feel like everyone in the world hate me.

Sometimes i feel like i'm just an annoyance to other people.

Sometimes i feel like i'm your best friend but actually i'm not.

Sometimes i feel like joining you guys is a disturbance to you all.

Sometimes i feel like killing myself a million times for the mistake i did.

Sometimes i feel like high and the next minute because of you i become down.

Sometimes i feel like eavesdropping others' conversation to check whether i'm hated.

Sometimes i feel like going to school but what i heard i really really regret going to school.

Sometimes i feel like i'm about to die after eavesdropping wondering whether it's true or false.

Sometimes i feel like being there with you guys is miserable because you guys changed so much.

Sometimes i feel like getting closer to you but when i'm only 1cm away from you i just can't voice out.

Sometimes i feel like i'm just someone that tries to be optimistic but inside me i'm always still a pessimist.

Sometimes i feel like you are talking to me not because you like me but instead you just don't wanna hurt me.

Am I really that type of bastard that everyone hates?

Am i really an annoying person? 

Isssssshhhhh!~~~ Do everyone feel this way or only me?